Lately I’ve come to the realization that I’ve been losing myself… Who I am and what I stand for. Some days I’m fine, but some days I wake up and ask myself ‘what the fuck am I doing?’ Some days I’m genuinely happy and some days I just want to isolate myself in my room. I’m either one bi polar fuck or…

I need a bit of inspiration and motivation back into my life. If only I can go to leadership camp and live there. Where my mind is completely free of stress and I can just be with people who realistically enjoy my company and my presence. People who care about what I have to say or how I’m feeling.

I miss being around those who actually care about me. My source of affection is growing below scantly. And it’s like I’m getting lonelier by the day.

Yeah okay.